Nuts & Bolts of the P.C.

Okay, so here is my update for December 18, 2009.

Have you ever been faced with your own failure? Well, it is staring at me in the face as we speak (I guess we aren't actually... you know what I mean). For over a week now I have been trying to set myself up on this blog talk radio site. I have scheduled a show for myself to perform 3 or 4 times now. Each time the show gets close, I don't feel like I'm adaquately prepared to do it, so I reschedule it. I'll set the show for 30 minutes and then I'll think, I won't be able to ramble for 30 minutes, then I'll set the show for 15 minutes. Then I think I'll set it for 30 minutes the next day. You get the picture. Point is, each time the show gets close, a spirit of fear grips me and I feel the need to conquer this fear very, very badly. So I will just have to invest an insane amount of prep time for this 30 minute show in order to conquer this fear. I've listened to some of these other shows & I see that some of these other hosts will come on and say, "I'll play some music now until we get some callers." Wowieee!! What an impressive show you have there... Sorry, just a little venting..

So why the title of 'The Philosopher Custodian?' Well, for starters, I am a custodian. That is my "job," at the moment, without wanting to make it a "career." While I am a custodian, I am also, when enrolled in classes, an English major. Mind you I only make it to class when I can afford it, & I haven't been able to afford it for some time now. But I still love to read. I love to learn; and I always try to carry a teachable spirit with me wherever I am. When I am working, I like considering my place among the world & universe. I would call that God's will, others would say that that it was fate. Either/or, custodial allows the mind to take time to consider such things.

More later...